Hi, My name in sheryl, I just informed my psychiatrist that 23 overdoses in the last 7 years were not due to suicidal thoughts. Instead, they were very carefully planed out.I used to work as an rn and have many medical books at my disposal.My husband would get furios with me .I would be up for days at a time reserching asprin overdosis.I always stuck with that because i knew how much to take to get me into the ICU.There are many more examples of unnessesary surgeries done.Ive also caused many infections that needed surgery.I always felt that the more meds i was on the better,but now that Ive confided in my doctor ive gone from 16 meds down to 5 meds. Im just realy scared because if i do get sick will they believe me?